As I sit in front of my PC, I don’t exactly know what I’m going to write. There are lot of things going on in mind---------- my grandfather’s scheduled heart operation tomorrow, the unpleasant events that unfolded in the college today, etc…..etc……I don’t know why I’m feeling a little low and what’s been bugging me since morning. On a deeper introspection I realise that it’s again how others perceive me or do to me has bogged me down since morning. Whether it’s becoming the butt of leg pulling at the college or the helpless feeling of not getting my true worth, both financially and critically, all that has resulted in the feeling of disappointment encompassing my life on 22nd September, 2008.
Sometimes I wish I were a little more handsome. Then life would have been a lot easier and simple. The above sentence may well appear not to be in sync with the start of this blog post or worse, the whole blog may appear to be so out of the tune for you. To make matter simpler, this blog is in response to the dejection of things not turning up as per my expectations during the course of the day. Why the world can’t be nice to u all the time? Why everyone can’t have talents,good looks,luck everything on his side?
While watching Amitabh Bachchan’s latest flick The Last Lear, I came across this dialogue from the mouth of the protagonist of the movie that the desire to perform makes an actor. Likewise, what makes a writer? It’s the desire to express, to let go all ur feelings. At this moment, I’m feeling a lot relaxed and at peace with myself. I vow not to pay heed to any sort of mindless and discouraging acts/comments of those lesser morons who have been born just to make the numbers. That’s the prime reason I started blogging---- to express myself, to release all the uneanted thoughts and be at ease with myself.
A blog may have so many definitions, but for me it’s on outlet to get in touch with my real self. It’s the time I talk to myself. It’s a way to de-stress and rejunevate. I foresee a life in the world of words. I don’t know whether I have the talent and temperament to survive and thrive in the galaxy of words or not. But I’ve the passion and love for writing and love expressing myself through the medium of words. Now it seems I’m dragging this blog a bit too long. I pray that everything goes well in the days to come. May God give me and my family the strength to fight all odds. May no one sleeps tonight with an empty stomach, may no one feels hard done by people in and around him. May God take care of all of us……………..Amen!!!!!!!!!!
